On Sunday my parents came down and we went to the cemetery to light incense for my sister’s father-in-law, and we split up to find his gravestone. So I was walking around, and then out of nowhere I realized that there were like hundreds of bodies in that little plot of land and I was walking around on top of them. Then I realized how weird it was, and it made me feel bad, and that kind of messed me up a little bit.
Do you have those days where you wake up in the morning and contemplate taking a long, distant (or near) journey all alone? Because even though you’re surrounded by people, you feel all alone do you want to take this trip so you can truly be alone like how you feel on the inside? Just to see who really notices that you haven’t crossed his/her path at all that day?
I miss you…
I really do. I’m just scared. So many things have happened or changed over the past year that i’m scared it can never be the same again. You’ve changed and I’ve changed. There’s really nothing we can do to change that. Sometimes I wish that I could just close my eyes and go back in time for a day, even an hour.
I got hamster like a week ago.
His name is Filbert.
He’s my first pet in years.
He makes me happy.
So today I bought a box of platinum blonde hair dye and the girl on the box seriously looked like a stripper.
I just want to curl up in a hole and die…